As usual, you're all free to disregard this. Thank you very much.

FRIEND ISSUES

Mostly resolved now. You guys probably don't remember but a while back I was complaining about my friends. Well, I finally got the nerve to stop being friends with Ally since she was the source of my problems. I don't really talk to her per se, but I never really did. When she comes around I kind of just slink off in secret. And I guess my other friend Sara noticed I had been disappearing when Ally was around. So I told her that I didn't like Ally that much because she was rude and exclusive.

This caused Sara to realize Ally was rude and exclusive. However, she still chats with her on occasion whereas I leave.

And I have my other friend Amelia who I never really had any problems with. Lol. She's comin' over next Thursday because we don't have school Friday. So yay.

OTHER ISSUES

And I have come to the realization I am the third wheel of my family too. Not that I mind it, I just think it's rude. I mean, I am offered to go places (like hiking and gross things by my mom), but that doesn't really count. And I decline because ew hiking? And I have better things to do. There's anime to watch and video games to play.
Heck, I never even finished my second play through of Dragon Age.

But mostly it's my siblings. Obviously, I mean, a mom is kind of obligated to ask all her children to join in on activities. My brother lives like five hours away, so he's not home ever, so he doesn't really count here. But when he is home in the summer and stuff, I know he's going to ask my one sister (WHO WE WILL CALL SISTER ONE) to do stuff with him, and probably sister two sometimes. SISTER THREE (that's me) will never be asked to do anything and she'll just sit in her room/living room all day.
Okay, I'd probably reject the offer to go anywhere, but seriously, it's the thought that counts.

And mostly it's sister one and sister two. (Not a very dynamic duo. -_-)

I dunno, I just feel like they're always doing things and I'm never even asked to do anything. And as I said, I'd reject almost for certain, but IT'S THE THOUGHT, RIGHT?
I also feel super annoyed by my sisters all the time. They're loud and noisy and they talk about stupid and/or inappropriate things. But they always, always do things. And I think I've told my mom before I think it's rude they never invite me? She agreed but I don't know if she ever actually said anything.
Maybe it's because I'm the youngest and I'm like... 5 and 3 years younger than they are (Not my brother).
But seriously. It's not that hard to ask someone a question. Especially when you know they're going to reject you.

But I think I'm going to keep a list over the summer. Every time a sibling goes somewhere with (just) another sibling, and how many times I was invited.
Not how many times I go. How many invites I receive.
Oh, it'll be fun. A nice hidden list under my pillow or something. I'll get a real kick out of it.


"Tonight looks like a cold one
The moon decides to show
Dance along the ocean
None of us will know, none of us will know

So this is the end of it
It's time for for us to go
Back to where we started
Back to what we know, back to what we know

Tomorrow's never promised you this world is all we share
I'd die a thousand times for you
I wonder if you'd care. I wonder if you'd care at all

Do you know what is feels like
To be alone
Well I do, I do."

_~Eyeshine